When Love and Hate Collides - Part II

When I can't fight my feeling longer, I try to tell her although I know, for she, that's just a joke!
And like I think before, she's just smiles. And when I say that my feeling is true, she's just saying;
"Forever, you're my friend. Not more..."
She say that I'm a good boy, handsome enough, interesting and so on. She say that I'm like her honey, but her honey is always better.
And for her, he's the best...

My heart is broke. But I'm not teenage. I'm not hate her, not have a resentment. I still be her friend, often to meet and sometime have a date!
I know that's something wrong 'couse can torture my feeling more. But I don't care!
I feel happy with her...

Next day I lost her. Her phone is can't connected. She also never comes to my home.
After 1 week, when I want to visiting her at her home, she comes to my home. She tell me that her honey was coming and for 1 week, she was enjoying time with him.
Hear it, I just quiet.

Since that, every she contact me or in my home, she's always talking about her honey. She always comparing me and him, and finally, she will saying that her honey is better than me!
I sad...
She's know about my feeling to her. And I know, I'm never can get her love. But why, she always talking about her honey and comparing with me? She's like not care my feeling again.
And if she thinks that her honey is the best, why she always has time for me?
What she just makes me as a 'complement' when her honey is not at her side?
TO BE CONTINUED......